Out side to other things and then off to Cambridge to see the big uni... It was big. I had been before, but I didn't have my camera then. I took a few pictures of this and a few pictures of that. And then we were off back home to a lovely steak dinner.
I got back, and the popped the card out of the camera and into the card reader. Error, please format. WHAT! UGH... 300 photos gone. Sigh... I knew the card that I purchased for 14 pound was going to crap. I should have used one of the others. I had that feeling; that feeling I should abide by the world and just do as I felt, not as I thought. Sigh... It was a good thing Tony took photos. At least I have something. I also will make a new user pic as well. :) Because I like the photo he took.
- Location:Narborough, Leicestershire, UK
- Mood:angry
I have been debating if I should get this game. I love RPG games especially around fantasy and magic, but I am not that crazy with all the blood in this one. However, this may be reason enough - and its about time.
"My dear Will, you must be healed by now... on the outside at least, I hope you're not too ugly. What a collection of scars you have. Never forget who gave you the best of them, and be grateful, our scars have the power to remind us that the past was real. We live in a primitive time, don't we, Will? Neither savage nor wise. Half measures of the curse of it, any rational society will either kill me or put me to some use. Do you dream much, Will? I think of you often. Your old friend, Hannibal Lector."
This is one of my favorite moments. and it just resonates with me. In my writing of the new novel ('The Do It Yourself Guide To Getting Over Yourself') and for that matter an underlying theme of 'House of Wolves' was finding 'what's next' after something terrible happens. In HoW - it's finding romance and love after losing a lover to AIDS; the two main characters meeting each other passing in the hallway at support groups for widowed gay men. and in the new work - it's someone trying to get out of the emotional quicksand of a particularly painful breakup with an ex-boyfriend.
What I love about Harris' letter how it so clearly communicates the impact of injury. Part of the grieving process sometimes is to deny that something happened or do a little revisionist editing so that it seems less hurtful. It is amazing what we'll put ourselves through to get past something. Granted, Harris is talking about physical wounds - - - but I think his quote works well for emotional wounds as well.
At 42 - I've been in three relationships - one that I totally fucked up; one that I sleptwalked through for almost a decade; and one that I'm in now with Dr. Dave. I've had emotional short periods where I dated someone and it didn't work out. And of course, the whole moving to San Francisco episode - which is the basis for the new novel. I talk to myself sometimes like Hannibal - - "what a collection of scars you have..."
I typed out the lecter quote and put it on the thought board for the new novel as my character rediscovers himself. His emotional scars reminding him that the past was all too real. and wading through the real-life stuff of "okay - that happened. it sucked. how do I get past it - and how do I really learn from it rather than just going right back out and seeking the same thing."
Heavy stuff, yes. I've enjoyed the challenge of writing a romantic dramedy on the topic - and it is doing me a lot of good to think through all of it both for myself and for my character Bill and his eccentric roommate and friends.
I recently wrote a friend of mine - who is in the early stages of a bad breakup:
Emotional scares - the ones in our heart and on our soul - when we seperate from loved ones (either by death or by breakup - or in your case - real intense relationships that result in real intense breakups) are harder to feel and respect. They sometimes feel like they'll never go away. They do heal - and when we reach out and love again - as we will because we're human creatures - and our nature is to love and be loved.... all these experiences that we feel like we're enduring and dragging ourselves through - make us all the better prepared when the right opportunity to love comes along - whether it's a lover you hold to yourself every night in bed; a penpal you write to every week; or a writer who's books you love so much you rush out like a 70s teenager did for a BeeGees album.
Loving is the chocolate covered dessert of being who we are.
Anyone that says they have no issues like this they think about is not being very honest with themselves. I always say to the person who says "I have no issues, I'm issue free" - after gently patting them on the back - "Darling - that is your first issue. Welcome to the club!"
This is probably one of my absolute favorite photos in my Flickr faves...the joy and the beauty here is palpable. It always makes me smile.
enthralled08:36 Happy shared birthdays to @SesameStreet and @neilhimself, both of whom I admire deeply and count among my greatest influences.
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19:22 You'd think after two trips to Korea in a month I'd be tired of kimchee, but no... at KogiBBQ Truck loopt.us/jnvFOg.t
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21:15 RT LOL! @xkot I play World of WeightWatch. It's about watching your DPS (damage per serving) and maximizing how you spend your food points.
22:02 Woooooooow this is an awesome trip down theme-park-memory lane www.themeparkbrochures.net/ (via @mbrister)
(auto-shipped by LoudTwitter)Out of the blue, I got an email this weekend from my second cousin in Sweden! My cousin in Iowa had called me 3 weeks ago asking me some more questions about Dad and then passed my email onto our aunt in Sweden, who is the genealogical work horse of the family (so it seems).
I'm finding out that I have a HUGE family in Sweden. I've been chatting back and forth all week with Tommy. And, he knows of
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andnnow -- even cooler. Tommy and his family are thinking about coming to the US in the spring to meet all of us. With all of the loss on my mother's side of the family, this has become very special and meaningful to me.
One thing I have noted in Britain this time is manners. I didn't know there were so many different forms of Thank you. One form dismisses, the other form is of gratitude. And they are terribly polite when opening doors. It seems every one does this. I, of course, follow suit. I don't want to be a rude American. Back to the thank you thing, I don't know what it is but it is rather funny when someone says it in a dismissive manner. I think it is rather funny. I try not to giggle. It isn't polite.
One other thing, people walking in shops and stores. Rather interesting to see them milling around ambliviant of everything. I have found myself saying excuse me, pardon me, oh, so sorry to step on your toes. Maybe it is because we have fewer people in America or we aren't on top of one another. But, they love to cut in front of you and such. I rather think it is like driving on the M1. Just zip around and go. All rather simple and such. But, I do get odd looks when I say excuse me, pardon me and such. I don't know what that is all about. I still keep coming back to the Thank YOU! and being dismissed.
- Location:Leicester, UK
I'll do this until relief shows up, but I think we can just label this whole experience as a shit show.
Damn it.
DAMN. IT.
Fuck fuck fuck. Sleep deprivation - I haz it. (the waste container was right behind the media - it wasn't complete stupidity, just poorly thought out placement and disposal.)
FUCK
Voilà
This is my new 3-year old Honda CBF 250 (read the specs here). It's a naked bike, so when you ride it over a certain speed, you surely get cold. I was protected this morning, so commuting has been a breeze, especially when I got at the Port traffic jam and I coul drive between the cars and saved 5-10 precious minutes. The bike is not fast at all, but it's got enough torque to negotiate traffic with ease.
I feel a little clumsy with the gears, as I had never ridden a motorbike with gears on my feet. In fact, the only motorbike with gears I've ridden was a Vespa, and the gears are on the left handle. Anyway, I just stalled it twice, once when I was closing the garage door and once at the first traffic light once I was in the city.
I'm not sure what I should be feeling right now. So far I feel fine. I'm told 3 am is a hard time to be in a TC but 2:40 is when I'm expecting excitement, so, what can you do?? I'm fine for caffeine, food, and water, so all's good on that front.
One thing that is pissing me off, however, is that there's so much white noise distributed throughout the lab that I can't hear my computer's speakers as I walk away from it. I've long since given up on my antiquated ipod, so that's a tad frustrating.
Anyway, that's be 2 am update.
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